The Winter of my Discontent.

It was the start of winter in December 2018 and I had now been home for a couple of weeks. Enough time surely to experience Falling and to know how important it was NOT to Fall! I obviously had not learn something from the garage fall a couple of weeks back. I had several more falls of varying degrees to convince me but one in particularly I vividly remember. I was in the house and trying to get to my iphone which was across the room ringing. In my haste I swirled around and the feet didn’t cooperate and I was going down, primarly because I rushed. The nearest thing to catch my fall with was a living room chair…
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with a cushion part contrasted with the hardwood. Scary that my face was planted into and came to a hard rest next to the hard wood. Thankfully I only bruised my right side of my face and eye but avoided breaking any face-bones or eye sockets. It was sore for a while. That could have easily turned out differently. I knew I had to slow down. Yet, I was doing anything but and ready to kick the stroke recovery into high gear.

Winter was settling in and the way I was thinking I got to get busying with recovery. Time is every thing with a stroke. This is what I got to work with …

https://youtu.be/2Cgvt8gi9P0

I had to lift the right hand with my left hand to get it on to the table to have it do that great feat!

It wasn't much! However, it just defined the scope of the recovery mission. Not to mention walking and restoring the right leg and gait. Plus there is above the neckline … mouth, facial, emotions, speech, balance, uncontrolled crying. Oh … there is also the thinking. How do I measure that? … I think I'm ok but there are issues there too I know. I'm sure it shows in my writing.

One of the first things to do was to get my Doctor to refill the new prescriptions. They were …

New Medication for stroke (Oct 7' 2018 - Acute Ischemic left MCA Stroke)

Clopidogrel 75 mg
Aspirin 81 mg
Levetiracetam 500 mg (2 a day)
Trazodone 50 Mg

Taking these before the stroke

Lisinopril 20 mg
Simvastatin 40 mg
Pantoprazole 40 mg

Just what I didn't want … more drugs … but I didn't want another stroke so end of that complaint. I did stop the Trazodone figuring I didn't need it at home. It helped with sleep when I was confined in rehab but home I should sleep better Doctor said. They also initially took me off Lisinopril … said the month I was there my blood pressure was normal or below. Much of this would change in the coming months.

Next "Get Smart". I read everything I could about Strokes, listen to podcasts, TED Talks you name it. I educated myself on Strokes so I could see what works and what doesn't and learn more about it. I've done that my whole life when faced with some issue I don't understand or no nothing about. The problem with doing that is over saturation. I became my own worse Doctor and it increased my worry ten fold. I stopped after a while … I learned some interesting stuff and learned about some inspirational people who made unbelievable recoveries but when I started seeing myself in the statistics I stopped. The mind needs to focus on here and now. There is an infinite number of possibilities and I was tired of trying to put a bow on the right one for me. Enough! Do my best and leave the rest to God.

Even so I was desperate and so was Yong to make sure we were not leaving any stone unturned. How could we fix this? Being from South Korea her suggestions were quite different than mine … as in acupuncture for strokes. I wasn't a believer but she was persistent … I think you know what I mean. I, on the other hand was getting STAR therapy lined up and in addition working out like crazy during the winter time. That was my plan. We started off together in working my way back to health but the seeds of war had been laid and the battle soon would be fought.

For some reason … I felt optimistic at this point to just get started … but everything takes your time … especially stroke recovery. The roller coaster was starting to move.

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